Info
- Artist:: moon II
- Album:: Purity Route
- Year:: 2019-02-21
- URL:: https://moon-ii.bandcamp.com/album/purity-route
Track Ratings
Release
| # | Title | Rating |
|---|---|---|
| 1 | Prayer Locket: I want to be a healer. I want to 100% heal. | |
| 2 | My Genie: You made nobody happy, but at least you didn’t get hurt. | |
| 3 | White Cats Die Young (Sign 0801): Then again, we’re both inky souls. | |
| 4 | Nesting: My second-rate love. My value-menu love. My you-were-there-and-I’m-too-scared-to-look-elsewhere love. | |
| 5 | Impasse: You left me for the exit as I screamed my name. | |
| 6 | Sleepwalking: I took her and held her up and stared up into her and was… happy. | |
| 7 | And We Are One: “Now tell me, Karma. If you could turn the key to end the world, wouldn’t you do it? Just to see what it’s like? Just to one-two-skip-a-few all the way to the end of this sad, silly story?“ | |
| 8 | Your Move: I looked at the syrup dripping over whipped cream and imagined a whipped cream world for myself too. It was harder than I thought. I’d touch it and it would topple. | |
| 9 | I am here, I’m nowhere, and nowhere’s right for me. | |
| 10 | Velveteen: Together forever promise. Sleeping part. | |
| 11 | Midnight Counterpoint: Only real tears bring absolution. |
2017 Demo
| # | Title | Rating |
|---|---|---|
| 1 | (Lyterie): The death of Lilly Watermoon. Or is it Lilly Lyterie? Nobody? I can never remember… | |
| 2 | My Genie: Goodbye, flower. You made nobody happy, but at least you didn’t get hurt. | |
| 3 | White Cats Die Young (Sign 0801): “That’s… how the song ends?” “For you, I’m afraid so.” | |
| 4 | Nesting: My shitty, second-rate love. My value-menu love. My you-were-there-and-I’m-too-scared-to-look-elsewhere love. | |
| 5 | Impasse: You left me for the exit as I screamed my name. | |
| 6 | Orchid the Dragon: Too huge. Too strong. Too scary! to be cute. | |
| 7 | And We Are One: “Now tell me, Karma. If you could turn the key to end the world, wouldn’t you do it? Just to see what it’s like? Just to one-two-skip-a-few all the way to the end of this sad, silly story?” |
Notes
“Legitimate” reference note for this album.
songs that are precious to me
Prayer Locket
if someone asked me what my absolute favorite song is, i don’t think i’d be able to give them a single answer. but that’s probably common around these parts. instead, the best i can really do is give them a few different options, organized by how sincere i am about them being my absolute favorite. we can start at Whoomp (There It Is) (10% sincere) and go from there:
- the opening to Phantasy Star III (40% sincere)
- rosary job (70% sincere)
- i never dreamed (95% sincere)
- prayer locket (200% sincere)
but that’s weird, right? you’re not supposed to put a song you wrote as your absolute favorite song! that would be conceited. and be real, do you really think that a song you put together with a tracker and an $80 mic is good enough to stand up against the canon?
and maybe it doesn’t. but.
i feel like anybody who skims through my account for any length of time will know that i have unusual preferences. anybody who digs a little deeper will start to see an underlying logic to what i like and why i like it, and anybody who thinks the same way as me (do such people exist?) can guess that i have a personal investment in the logic and world i’ve cultivated. i listen to things as a means of understanding who i am, and can firmly say that everything i like also becomes a part of me, in a way.
so, purity route is an ok album. like anything, there are some parts i like, some parts i don’t, and every song has something i’d change in retrospect. but then there’s prayer locket. i don’t know what happened, but something happened with that one. it managed to tap into the fundamental wiring that makes up who i am, and draw out something that rearranges the strange and messy way i tick into something i can make sense of. i consider it a form of pure self-expression, and through its creation i somehow actually accomplished a goal which many artists spend decades chasing.
(like it still took me over a decade to get to this point, but hey.)
yet the consequence was that i ended up soul-bonded to that song, in a way that i don’t think i am with anything else. and, looking back, my attachment to that song is what made the reception of that album absolutely crushing. i could only take it as a rejection of myself in the most fundamental way, because it just so happened to contain a piece of me at my most fundamental. and so even though i know all this is irrational, i can’t bring myself to promote it, or even to tell anybody about it. i don’t want to get hurt anymore.
i’ve stopped regularly listening to music. it doesn’t really leave a good taste in my mouth now.
i’ve stopped making music for much the same reason.
i regularly consider deleting everything, just so it can’t hurt me.
yet every month or so i end up crying because of it anyway.
i did the emotional equivalent of jamming a fork in the electrical socket and now there are five six songs that are guaranteed to send me into a sobbing fit.
i thought i did a good job…