were i to cover dollmaker… (codependence mix)
i’ve been thinking about this more and more lately, and the shape of what i would want this to sound like is coming together in my mind…
really, the thing that was holding me back is that i don’t know what i could add to the song to give it a worthwhile existence apart from the original, but i think i might have such an idea now.
- i kinda want to replace buffalobang’s contribution :p. it’s pretty lyrically static, especially in comparison to the pain and pleading that neppy has been retreading ever since grave chimera, and which they revisit here as well
- i think chloe suggested that the reason why i end up dating vulnerable women is because, if they don’t have any better options, then they have less reason to abandon me. this is likely not great, and it hasn’t stopped them from leaving me anyway, but it’s not like anyone who has had other options has ever chosen me over them (until chloe)
- but also, since this is likely not great, this is i think a viable direction to take the song. let’s make the relationship portrayed toxic and codependent, since that hits closer to my own experiences
- and really, i feel like neppy lets their relationship struggles bleed out onto the page quite often
- though once this is done, does this become like me shipping myself with neptune in the worst possible way?
- they deserve better than me, at least, to my knowledge
- the chorus is the part i adore most about the original, and i think that’s what i care about the most as well. the tension, the feeling like this could all come crashing down at any point
- i reserve the right to alter the chorus melody to the one i imagined it actually was for a while
nvm this is all kinda embarrassing, and plus this means i would have to exist…