athazagoraphobia, fear of forgetting mainly on my part. it links heavily to fear of the unknown, xenophobia. it kind of disturbed me how i knew jack-all about this website. in plain sight, but no option to see what’s happened here. my athazagoraphobia is there because of a childhood game of mine, need for speed: prostreet. i used to love that game, we played it with my friends, i beat it multiple times. the car customization was so in-depth that it took me completely. but, we moved, i haven’t been able to see my friends since, i haven’t had the ability to visit my last home(WHICH IS REALLY MAKING ME SICK), and the only memory i really have is a very scratchy and beat up nfs: prostreet disk for the wii. i’ve been looking daily, to get a disk version for the pc, but to no avail. I can’t really think of anything right now, i pirated the game for my older pc, but it was a pirate, it worked quite badly. due to this game i once had an existential crisis, i think my athazagoraphobia acted up on me and i thought that if something’s happened, it’ll never happen again. it’s lost forever, never will i experience it again. due to this, i just laid in bed for a few days. i’m over it now though, has been a year since it’s happened. soon to ask her out if the situation allows. あなたが大好き。
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